My Rainbow has arrived!

Cédric James made his appearance at 8:19 am on April 4, 2013 weighing 8lbs11oz and was 21.5 inches long. He weighed 1 oz less than his older brother and 2.5 inches longer. The c-section went swimingly, a million times better than with Olivier, it only took one try for my spinal, and they gave me an anti anxiety injection to help with the spinal, and I had a great nurse with the anesthesiologist who helped me through the whole thing. I think that helped my recovery afterwards, I was up and moving around without help the next day, and walking the halls, holding the baby, the day after that. I did need to stay in until Sunday because I needed 3 days (post surgery day) of heparin shots (3 times a day!) and Cédric lost 9% of his body weight (at 10% the baby isn't allowed to leave) so Sunday we went home. Olivier has been dealing pretty well, and is getting better each day.
We have been breastfeeding, and today I finally saw a lactation consultant and found out that Cédric is mildly tongue tied which has been making the whole experience a little hard, but now that we know what the problem is, I am hoping we can work around it.
I am back in pre-pregnancy jeans! At 9 day post pregnancy I was able to put on, and button up, the last pair of jeans I bought before I got pregnant. They are a little tight, but I can wear them and breath at the same time so I count that as success lol.

Mama, papa and Cédric in the operating room

Mama and Cédric

His stats!

Finally in a room

Grandpa and Cédric

Finally home!

The best place to take a nap!

First night at home as a family of 4, both boys fell asleep on the couch!

So excited to hold his little brother!

Sorry about the silence!

Well as the title says, sorry about the silence! The last 9 months have been busy and hectic and as of today we are 2 days away from the impending birth of baby boy #2! He will be arriving by scheduled c-section on April 4. We are all very excited, although Olivier seems to be a little stressed this past week or two, but we will work through it like we have everything else. My father is in town to take care of Olivier while Jonathan and I are at the hospital with the baby. We are already looking forward to coming home and starting back to our life. Part of that life is the dreaded W word. Weight. Both Jonathan and I are very much overweight (I am actually ashamed of my last weigh in at the doctors last week) and we do not want to pass on our bad habits to our kids. So we decided that we are going to do Weight Watchers (going to try to go the free route by using the resources available on the internet) in the hopes that we all start eating better and making better choices. So I will be using this blog to chronicle that whole thing as well. Our weight loss, our life making the changes of going from one baby to two, as well as getting our wedding planned and buying a house. Its going to be a busy year! But first we have to survive the first few weeks with 2 kids lol.

Why I've been MIA....

Well it's been a while since I last posted, and for those of you coming to see news in our road to a new baby may have been like, What the heck?! Well I've been staying away for a reason and now, I've decided to let you all in on the news. WE ARE EXPECTING!! I took a test on July 28th, don't even ask why I thought to test, I don't remember, but I did and it came back very clearly positive at 11dpo. This was our magic dpo, because usually by this time I would miscarry so having a positive then was big. I got blood tests to confirm it, and after a small ectopic scare, we saw a heartbeat at 6w1d. Baby was measuring exactly to the day which was a HUGE relief. You have no idea. But because of our previous losses we don't want to announce until we are 12 weeks (I'm 9 weeks today) which is why I have been staying away. But tonight, as I lay here on the couch with wicked bad morning noon and night sickness, heartburn and insomnia I decided to spill the beans on my blog. Here's to hoping that on April 1 we will have a healthy and happy baby in our arms (I'm due April 8 but since I am a repeat c-section, baby wont be any later than April 1, my dads birthday).

Haunted

This week has been...a mixed bag. I spent a lot of time at work listening to my iPod and I realized that almost every song on my current playlist makes me think of certain people or events, things like that. I'll give you some examples:
Last Kiss by Taylor Swift. So totally a song for my ex Paul. Along with Back to December. I can't listen to the first few notes of these songs without thinking of him.
Airplanes by B.o.B. My bff Dylan. It's even his ringtone in my phone and has been since the song came out.
Call Me Maybe by Carly Rae Jepsen. Mari. This is our song lol. We would sit at work with the radio going, when we shared the same space, and we would both sing the song, and it seemed to follow us everywhere. Before it became a big song.
Beautiful by Hedley. This actually makes me think of all the ladies in my life. Every woman should know she's beautiful.
Mean by Taylor Swift. Diane. Anyone who is from my WTE group will know who is woman is. I could also say Alice as well and they'd know.
All these songs have had me thinking all week, reliving things, just being lost in my thoughts. It wasn't a very productive week, especially with Taylor being played a lot.

Another reason it was so long; I'm in my two week wait. I ovulated at the end of last weekend. And this time, I'm not only waiting to see if I'm pregnant, I'm also waiting to get tests done. I have to go for a set of blood tests on Tuesday (now that I know I ovulated I have to wait for the second week for my tests). Then again I'll have to wait until 2-5 days after my period to get my other tests. This month includes way more waiting than usual. I hate waiting too, I'm the most impatient person on the planet so these two weeks (and really the whole last 6 months) are one big waiting game of hell.

Mari said her mom saw a clairvoyant a while ago and the woman told her that Mari was supposed to be a twin, a brother, and that he saw there wasn't space so he was waiting. And when she asked for what the woman told her that he is waiting for Mari to have him, he was going to be her son. Mari told me that maybe my baby is just waiting for its time. I appreciated the thought, but at the same time I just wanted to yell , Well now is as good a time as any! It's frustrating.

1, 2, 3. Testing. Testing.

Well it's been a month since I updated and quite a bit has happened in my saga of reproduction. I finally saw my doctor last week and it was a fantastic appointment.

• We are doing testing!! I have to go for two different rounds of blood tests, one will be at least a week after my ovulation, and then the second test will be between 2 and 5 days after I start my period. Both times have a TON of draws, and some of them very specific testing for clotting disorders, progesterone etc. Then at the same time of my second round of blood tests I have to go for an ultrasound.
• We have to see a specialist. My doctor can order tests but she can't prescribe anything reproductive wise that we could possibly need. But we have options. 1. See a gynecologist here in Gatineau, but the wait times is loooong; 2. see a gynecologist at Montfort Hospital in Ottawa, but again, wait time is loooong; 3. Go to the Ottawa Fertility Clinic which isn't covered by our health plan (although we qualify for 50% tax credit) and pay 250$ not including any possible treatment, but the wait time isn't long at all since it is a private clinic; or 4. we can get referred to the McGill Repoductive Center in Montreal at the Royal Victoria Hospital. In Quebec we qualify for 3 rounds of IVF per pregnancy attempt paid for by the province and then 50% tax rebate afterwards. You can also have 6 rounds of IVM or natural cycles covered instead of IVF. The wait time at McGill is very quick as well. We chose to go with McGill for a few reasons. 1. I don't want to wait 6+ months to see a doctor here in Gatineau. 2. If we do end up needing treatment, we can't afford to shell out all that money for the treatment, 3. In case we do need treatment, I would rather to do in Quebec since that is where we live, things will be much less complicated. 4. Hey that means a couple day trips to Montreal and I love Montreal, even if the chances are I,ll only see the inside of the hospital, I don't care. I have to get all  my blood work and ultrasound done before going to the clinic in Montreal, but I am glad we are on the right track.

I'm Yours

Well last night Chantal and I went to our first Wilton Cake Decorating Class at Michaels. For me it was a review of things I already knew, except I learned a new buttercream recipe that I can't wait to try. Most of the class was listening to lady talk about the different tools etc (she was hilarious, but Wilton tries way too hard to make you buy their things) then we practiced stars and decorated cookies.

After the class, which from 5-7, we went across the parking lot to Davids Bridal. There was a dress I had seen online that I loved and wanted to see it in person. I had no intentions of trying it on, but I did. I fell in love. Since I was just there with Chantal, who is also my maid of honor, I booked an appointment to go back next week on Friday. My mom, grandma, who is paying for the dress, my sister Amélie and Mari, who are both bridesmaids, will be coming with me. I have a feeling Amélie may bring her bff Vanessa too. The wedding isn't going to be until January 2014 but I have no doubt in my mind that this is the dress. I called my mom and she was like, but what if you gain weight or lose weight? I will stay within this weight range (hopefully lose a little) if it kills me.

 This was my first choice and the one I tried on last night. The other two (another my grandma liked and one my mom liked) I am going to try on at my appointment next week. While I really like them, the first one with the lace is really my favorite and I think will be insanely hard to beat.

In more wedding related news we have our first dance song picked out I Wont Give Up by Jason Mraz. I had played it for Jonathan and they played I'm Yours which I liked as well, and Olivier loves that one too so we are going to do that for a second dance with Olivier. And I have my florist picked out, it's Bloomin' Funky and the second Melissa suggested putting feathers in my bouquet I was sold. I'm such a feather freak that I had no choice but to pick her. And she was honest with me when I would ask about flowers and would tell me if it was going to cost an arm and a leg. She liked my ideas about having each of my bridesmaids having a different bouquet and their groomsman match the bouquet (their boutonniere). Our venue is pretty much decided on, Orchardview. We still haven't decided on if we want a cocktail wedding or a reception wedding, but if we go cocktail its going to be a friday evening wedding, a reception would be late afternoon wedding I think.

And around we go again

Nothing is more disappointing than your body playing mean tricks on you. It has you thinking you're pregnant, convinced! But then, at 11 days post ovulation your period arrives, 6 days early and is worse than ever. It makes you go, wtf? is this another miscarriage (since everything is exactly like last month when I had a miscarriage) or is it just my cycle fucked up because of my miscarriage and my period is just early. And of course I saw my doctor on Thursday, 10 days post ovulation and everything was fine, except now she's on vacation for 3 weeks. Her nurse still hadn.t called me back on Friday so now I get to speak to her (hopefully) on Monday. In a new office. Without Mari, just 2 women and a man who have no idea whats going on. Lovely Times.